so when are you coming home danni;
month ago i would have said immediately, and now i feel as though i can never give up this life. its hard to describe in words, but the exhilaration that you feel, that thrill through your spine knowing that you can zip off anytime you want to anywhere,the continuous motion of moving, it helps me get on with life.its escapism in its purest form-when i feel broken i zip off immediately to switzerland, hungary,germany-anywhere i please. and the mystery that i am keeps people guessing. its fun to know you can have multiple identities-one day i can be maki from japan, and the next minute im hae jin from korea. and no one knows where i really am because one hour i am home in vienna, and the next im in paris. its this continous drift that has got me addicted-theres nothing i worry about in my life, because theres really nothing for me to do except study and have my fill of fun since everything else is provided for. and perhaps i am lucky in that sense. id be completely trapped by cookie cutter ordinariness if i were to stay in singapore-its only now that i realise that everyones so alike and so, so boring. there wouldnt be any growth if i stayed, and education wise i would never get what i have now either. its hard for most friends to understand now, but there is only so much i can say. because i see friendships starting to drift apart,ive changed so much and i cant see singapore in a comfortable light anymore and perhaps ive started to become westernised along with the heavy party life that i have. i dont want to let go of what i have back in singapore, but i will do anything, anything that i can in my power to stay here.so maybe its goodbye to all for now.
i'll come home when i want to daddy.
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danni blows a raspberry right at you.
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